I'm so sorry I've been MIA for the past two days.
This week has been a rough one, my friends. Not for any discernible reason other than my effing period is a mother effing bitch. Sorry to the dudes who are reading for that little tidbit, but it's the truth! This has been a seriously rough one. I'm weepy and cranky and REALLY exhausted and the coup de gras was this killer migraine I've been fighting on and off since Monday.
I felt really bad not blogging, since I really enjoy it and it seems some of you do too, but I just couldn't do it. So please forgive me for my absence - I will actually try to get some extra posts written in the event this happens again, I just have to find the time to do it!
No make-up and no filter selfie from Jules and me, saying HI and sorry for our absence!!
So here is something fun that's been happening this week - we'll call it my Thursday Truth. On top of feeling like absolute crapola with a migraine and other fun Auntie Flo symptoms, Jules has not been sleeping. For the past week and a half or so she's been waking up around 8, then again around 10:30 and then she wakes up every 15 minutes or so between 2-5am before settling back down around 5:30 until I wake her up.
Before you ask, she's not hungry or cold or hot or anything like that.
This is completely unacceptable and I finally lost my will to be at her beck-and-call on Tuesday evening around 10:30pm after the 4-5 time she'd woken up and I decided to unplug the baby monitor and let her cry. I have always been super anti cry-it-out, but there's nothing wrong with her; she just wants Jason or I to come in and hold her and put her back to sleep 9 billion times a night and we can't do it anymore! My boss told me I looked like I needed a nap on Wednesday and it's true - I look and feel awful and can hardly function anymore due to it!
So Tuesday night she ended up crying for about 10 minutes and fell right back to sleep and I didn't hear her another peep from her. Yes, the baby monitor wasn't on, however if she really screamed and fussed it would wake me up since I can hear her quite clearly from our bedroom without the monitor. Not to mention her brother's room is right next to hers and he would get me up if she was really freaking out. Last night she went to bed without a peep and as far as I know, she didn't wake up at all.
Before you start judging me and calling me a horrible mom because I'm sure about 50% of you are anti-CIO, she's fine. She has a bottle before bed and sleeps in a 72 degree bedroom with long-sleeved pajamas and a light blanket with a ceiling fan. We have a white noise machine going and a salt lamp in the corner on low so she isn't in a dark, scary room all by herself, and she has a little lovey (stuffed unicorn and bunny) that we put in her crib that she can cuddle with. And she's 15 months old (TODAY!), so the risk of SIDS is pretty much zero. It's not healthy for her to be waking up this much, just as much as it's not healthy for us, and it is important that she learn to put herself back to sleep in the middle of the night.
Go ahead and judge away if you really want, but this is what is right for us at this time and I'm glad we're doing it because DAMN am I exhausted! And I promise I haven't judged you for your co-sleeping/still breastfeeding/CIO at 3 months old/whatever you're doing that's differnt than me, because we're all doing the best we can with what we can and doing the best we can is what's best for our kids.
Now onto some things and stuff! I love things and stuff and stuff and things (my mom, sister, and I always say that...we're weird).
I got new running shoes!
Finally! I have needed new running shoes for over a year. Not even kidding.
I found the Brooks Launch 3 which is last year's model on Amazon for $70 and I had to get them. First, they're purple. And they're really bright and pretty, which are very important qualities in a running shoe. I only ran a little over 3 miles in them so I can't really review them thoroughly yet. I can tell you right away that they are way heavier than the shoes I normally run in (Brooks PureCadence 2 R.I.P.), but I think I'll like them.
Plus, they're PURPLE!!
Speaking of running, I know I mentioned this in one of my recent posts, but I ran with my Garmin watch and the mapmyrun app on my phone, and as I suspected, the mapmyrun app is WAY off.
That's almost a 1/4 mile difference! I knew I wasn't running that slow (plus my husband had measured the distance with a survey stick thing). Needless to say, I will not be running with the mapmyrun app anymore, at least in our neighborhood. Maybe I'll give it another shot this weekend when I run the trail - I have the feeling the 1/4 mile circles are what is throwing the app off.
You might be wondering how I'm doing with my meditation challenge. Well *cough, cough*. I have meditated on and off but have not done it the entire time. I didn't meditate at all this weekend, but managed to do it on Tuesday and Thursday this week. So...it could be worse!
I call that a win!
How about a fun running/walking/interval workout for you?
Quick disclosure: I am not a personal trainer or professional anything fitness-person. This is just what I personally do whenever I want to do an easy interval workout that keeps me busy and never lets me get bored. Make sure you talk to your doctor before doing anything new fitness-wise!
This is what I do whenever I don't want to just run, whether it's because I'm bored or I just want to get a good sweat on because intervals are a great way to get a good sweat going. The best part of this workout? You really don't have to be a runner to do it, because you will only be running/jogging for part of it.
I really like this workout because it's based on the rate of perceived exertion and not a running pace, since a lot of people aren't able to run as fast as most running/jogging/walking workouts require. Here's a super fun chart I made up of what I mean by rate of perceived exertion (which is a fairly common workout term for intensity and can be found all over the internets).
So here's my favorite interval workout:
- Warm up for 5 minutes at a 2-4 RPE; start at a 2 and work your way up to a 4. This doesn't mean you have to be running; you could just be walking quickly.
- RUN for a minute - your RPE should be an 8 or 9! Even if you're not a runner, you can still jog - it's only for a minute so push yourself and get to the point that you can't form a sentence,.
- Slow jog or swift walk for a minute - your RPE should be around a 5. You're out of breath but can hold a conversation if you needed to.
- Repeat the intervals for 10-20 minutes, just depending on how long you want your workout to be. Make your last few your best!
- Cool down for 5 minutes at a 2-4 RPE; start at a 4 and slow down to a 2.
Then be sure to pat yourself on the back for kicking some ass and drink a bunch of water. Good job!
Bonus points if you do it in the morning...
Because that is totally worth waking up for!
Speaking of my period (guys, this isn't anything gross or graphic but I know how squeamish you can get so you may want to scroll until you see the next picture), I have been keeping up with the 5:2 style of eating and having success with it up until this week when I want to eat everything in sight. So instead of trying to be perfect and failing, I decided to allow myself more calories on my fasting days to make up for being a hormonal psycho who wants to eat everything. And I've added a bit more carbs on my fasting days so I don't gorge. I don't know that it has worked completely, but I haven't binged at all this week and normally I binge like a total crazy person (on chocolate and salty things). Hopefully I can start losing some weight again starting next week when this awful time of the month is finally completely gone. I hate it.
Why am I showing you a picture of my messy and disgusting backseat with an empty car seat in it? Why don't I tell you?!?
Ever since going back to work after maternity leave last July, I have been absolutely terrified of forgetting Jules in the backseat. The news is filled with awful stories about parents forgetting their baby/toddler in the backseat and I cannot even begin to imagine how horrible that must be for them. It's accidental in 99.9% (fake statistic I just made up) of the cases and they say it usually happens because of a change in routine - you leave late due to a schedule change or have to run by the store on the way and you simply forget.
Living in Florida, it is already over 85 most days and humid AF and the potential for this to happen is real for most of the year. So to keep this from happening I've started putting my lunch and purse in the backseat behind Julianna's carseat. This way I always have to walk around and open her door and if she's in there, I'll see her cute, smiley face. So if you have kids that are still in carseats I urge you to do this as well. It's easy and free and will give you some peace of mind knowing you took that extra step to prevent a tragedy.
I leave you with a cat meme to describe how I feel this week.
I hate this time of the month.
How are you doing today/this week? Anything fun and exciting happening in your world? Do you become a weeping rage-monster when Aunt Flo is in town? Do you know of any magical PMS cures?
I hope you are all having a great week and I promise I'll be back tomorrow with something super fun and exciting!